I don’t have a post for today.

Fuck, I’m really bloody annoyed at myself.
It’s Friday evening, and I’ve just sent an email to my dad which says essentially the same as this post (only a lot more in depth). I want to put it out in the open and I want to make a statement: from this moment, things are going to change.

Today [Friday], we had a work event. Many a picture was taken, and I look at every single one of them and think: shit, I look so unhappy. My skin is dull, my eyes are tired, my smile is practised. And I can’t take it any more.

I am going to pull myself out of this. This is something I was always good at; but then there was one point in my life at which I couldn’t do it, and ever since then, I haven’t been able to get back on it. But I am now. I know which points in my life I need and want to change, and it’s going to start now.

Because right now, all I do is waste my life and let me tell you, I don’t have time for this.

Positive posts shall resume from next week on – I am not going to stop sharing my thoughts but fuck, we need to inject some sunshine in here.

’til then x

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