In many aspects, I am not who I used to be. A normal development, for no one is the same person they were a year, a month, a day ago. Life shapes us like water does with rocks; the synergy of time and the ever changing curve of life.
Success / failure / insecurities
The first love / the last love
The first breakup / the worst breakup
It all takes away or adds
And then sometimes, as I walk along the path that remains, I find a hidden treasure. Buried in the ground, covered in dirt and sand. I dig deep, wiping away what’s been burying the box for what I can only imagine must be forever.
What I reveal is myself.
Characteristics and personality traits I believed to be long gone; to have been gradually swept away by the rough tides that made so much chip away. And I realise – it has never been taken away irretrievably.
I had simply spent too much time with someone who was too trained in taking away who I was; to make me a dependant shadow of myself. Who split my soul into pieces and never told me where they hid them.
It has been 528 days.
2017 will be the year I find them all, and they will fit like a puzzle I thought I couldn’t finish.